Self portrait 2007

I wrote the following poem for my creative writing class last year. I thought I'd share it.

Self portrait 2007

Made by hand
from people who knew how to survive in a place
where life is worth 50 cents a day.
Working hands shaped me
so that I could sing and bring about storms,
so that I could tell the stories of rain
and maybe give you peace
while you fall asleep.

And the sounds of my heart will pretend to be rain.
A heart filled with rocks,
or beads,
or beans,
or who knows what.

For I am a souvenir of nations
from where I will bring stories,
stories of rain.

BEG

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Not saying much... viva
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Mira lo que me encontre!!!

This morning this song hit me... while driving.... suddenly I was back in night-teen-nighty-seven. Oh yes. And now, thanks to the wonder that is youtube, here it is... the dream song Echar a Volar. Sight. ;)

Salvador, Brazil

I found this beautiful photo of Salvador in the NYT travel section. I would love to have those beautiful colors here. All the gray and infinite shades of white and yellow in the houses and lives here are... so... bland. I want warmth, beauty, life, color. 

Nothing to do with one another

I appear to be into love this weekend. 

I'm listening to this album and wanting this. 

I hope I only have to say this once

My clothes don't fit anymore. I am in a place where I am no longer comfortable with my weight and I need to do something about it. I've never been skinny, and I don't think I could ever be. But I do want to be healthy and feel OK with my size.

I came to this realization a couple of months ago, when my class ring was feeling a little too tight. This can't happen.... I just graduated. And I'm one of those people that know what to do to be healthier, but doesn't apply all that wonderful knowledge. I'm going to take it slow, and I have to think about this because I'm not sure where to start.

This weekend I'll take time to think about what my goals with be in weight and size and then I'll have to think of things I need to do to achieve my goals. It's going to be like my leadershape vision blueprint, at least this post is reminding me of it. I'm not anticipating this to be easy, but it's not impossible. And you will not hear me counting calories and talking about carbs, that's for sure. I don't like those people that are obsessed with dieting and all that crap, so I won't be one of them. We'll see what happens. I have to stick with things. Discipline is the word.

Moon Eclipse

I'm gonna have to paint one, cause this arkansas weather is not gonna let me see the last moon eclipse that's gonna happen for a while. Theeeese clouds are not very nice. And dang work. I have a lot of it. So let's find the good side :D

"this is the plan"

i am excited!!! Ja and Jo are here visiting from las vegas... I love them! we hung out pretty much all day today. I missed them. And blast from the past, the UA felt familiar again.. nice to have seen some friends again. 

now, here's the plan, as Jo told me:

i'm going to move to Chicago, then Josh and Keith will follow, then Ja and Jo. simple. it will most likely not happen tomorrow, but that's the plan. 

in another note. there's a little girl that has been in my heart since the first time i saw her picture and her pigtails. 

i'm praying for you every day. 

Happy Valentine's!

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En el dia del amor y la amistad... here's the ones I love.
Gracias por hacer esta vida tan buena!

MADAME PRESIDENT 2008

i don't talk much about politics as i should.

late nights with no café

This won't be a long entry, I just wanted to leave in writing the fact that i'm getting it together. Slowly, but surely. And I've been having late night without the help of caffeine (randomness takes me off the course of lines and words my brain thinks of...)

On an unrelated global climate topic, global warming is really hot. Today was on the 70's all day long. Yesterday was warm too. All this in the very middle of winter. And last week it snowed here. And it was super cold. And there are still some that don't "believe" in global warming. Like there's anything to believe in, this seems pretty real to me. Or what? Is this crazy weather just part of something called El Niño Loco?