Saturday, December 27, 2008

Feliz Cumpleaños and good-bye

te quiero mucho amiga! it was a couple of days ago, but here's this:
feliz 24

And with that, I say goodbye.

With the end of the year always comes reflection and new expectations. I am happy and thankful for this year. It has been good and bad, happy and sad, and memorable. I got to see people I love. I got to see my dad and my friend Paulina after so many years. And the first of the year I got to see my brother JuanCa after almost 6 years. 2008 has left me with many blessings, but also, with a big hole inside.

I started this blog out of nothing, so beside from somewhat outlining part of my journey in the past 5 years it didn't go anywhere. So I have to move on. Move on from this space to new, wonderful things. :)

For now, find me here, here, and here.

I wish you life, health and happiness.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Feliz Navidad to you and yours!!

I wish you a very happy time!!! Enjoy the time with your family, friends and
loved ones. There's nothing better than that!!!


Sunday, December 21, 2008

He took my pain away

This was a hard week for me. And I asked Him to take the pain away and He did.

Thank you God.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

oh i've been reading about batteries

And it looks like i need to calibrate my macbook pro battery. If it doesn't work i'll have to call apple support... it might be just a little too late to talk about calibrating a battery though... zzzZZZ.

Oh yeah... "Nothing like the Holidays" is my new fave. Will have to buy it for next Christmas... will be a movie tradition, just like Love Actually.. well, almost.

Y bueno, pareciera que no tengo nada de sueño... that's what night walks at the park do to you. Specially when it's cold. I have a full day planned for tomorrow... or later today, I should say. I have some shopping to do and some wandering. Oh, i love the definition of wandering... very poetic.

"walk or move in a leisurely, casual, or aimless way"

I am listening to the wind and the very crusty leaves that are dancing to its melody just outside this window. It's very cold outside. And I got tired of my glasses, put them away, and now the lights seem magical.

The moon tonight was beautiful. The night before I was born there was a beautiful moon, it was so bright that my mom thought the sun was still out. She said that's maybe why I like the moon so much. But then I told her how much I like the sun too.

Oh, this thinking has made me sleepy. Buenas noches.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008


From here to there. It's been a long day. From work to work to grocery shop to visit to eat to come back and talk. Oh my. I'm not done yet. One watercolor design to go and I'll be good for bed.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Snow clouds and a Micky D's gift card

I drove under snow clouds tonight. Clouds so bright that you think the lights of a stadium could be on, or that maybe the day hasn't ended yet. It's cold and I find myself journaling again. Not very lively, but journaling again.

Monday, December 08, 2008

Love, actually.

Emails emails. I want to hang out with you. and you. and you. There's a movie i want to see today and tomorrow and the next day. But just this month. Every movie has its season, every season has its move. Every day gets closer to the end of the year and the beginning of the new year. New calendars, new goals or maybe we'll recycle. Quiero esto, quiero aquello, but that's what I really want.


Sunday, December 07, 2008

Sitting, standing. Cliché reigning over talks and the news crashing down on the little people and forgetting details that make them seem ridiculous and completely unprepared. I am standing and I read the sentences of the famous man that was murdered and that lives forever in those words. Those powerful words that someone forgot to teach me how to pronounce. I am sitting. Listening to the cords of his guitar. With my eternal soul. Alone. Not lonely. Always trying to repair someone else and pretending I know how. Unicorns aren't real. If they were, they'll be blue and yellow, and they wouldn't fly. Inanimate objects call a name, not my name, they can't pronounce it. I told you cliché reigns over talks. I got two eyes and they are fine and see color so bright and soft and they can't see too far out.

This is nothing. Just words. But I could be wrong. Wrong for stealing lines and borrowing air. Kisses kissses kisssses in foreign countries where I once stepped foot. I am standing on the top of an ancient sanctuary and in the middle of a ball park. On top of the tallest hand-made mountain you can imagine, and the stars look so far still.

Once upon a time was too long ago.

But there's this song that reminds me of rainy afternoons and bus rides. What a long green ride. What a sharp image. What a dusty country and how colorful were those stamps. They don't use stamps anymore. It's a waste of ink, I heard. Also someone that now is really famous found out how to stamp in invisible numbers. My eyes can't see those, no matter how close they are. I haven't seen them this week. I also haven't seen that man. And I have seen too many strangers and I remember their names, and I've forgotten the name of friends and only remember their faces now. Memory. I have to back up the memory or I'll forget. But I won't ever forget of the rose that you killed. Who's waiting? Oh make them wait and they'll eventually go home. Push away, let go. What does it all mean? I was interesting at some point in time. And it wasn't too long ago, but no no more. Tell me a story and I'll make up the ending. The beginning is yours to keep I don't want it. And you can correct me, but keep the draft marked with red pen because I will through it out for you.

And someone said everyone will say they believe, but what if someone can't say it and that mouth doesn't even open for a smile. Oh the green grass and the warmth. What are those flying lights? The song's over, so I'll get up.

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

5 years

Today marks 5 years since my first blog post.

una noche de diciembre

Time flies.