A hard week and a song

We have a way of taking life for granted, these days feel eternal even when we see them passing by so fast. Life is so fragil and we are all dying. But how horrible it is to be able to visualize that end, when we have seen it, when we have a good idea of how it will most likely end.

I got news from two friends in the last . Both of them have been influential men in my life. Both are facing terminal conditions. Both told me in writing. Monday and Tuesday. One has more hope than the other. One has more support than the other. Both news broke my heart.

After a couple of days of taking it all in, I replied today. I wrote to one and called the other one. Shit, man. This is harsh.

"To the top of all the world
to the tasteless underworld
to the center of your heart, oh Cleopatra is the only one you loved

To the demonstrated smile
to the lonely love child

destination desolation, tell me when you reach the brink of life
just a picture on your wall

thats nice, what a metaphoric fall

Typically, I was a validation on your sleeve
oh what an indication

To the center of the pain
through your tattered window pane
to the middle of your heart

Resolutions and lovers in the kitchen
love is clueless and destiny is wishing
this is my heart, it's on the line...

This is not what I expect, this is not what I expect
I can see it in your tears and now they're crowning me the Caesar"

A travelogue of sorts: Las Vegas, Sept 2011

Pupusas, Tonopah Community Garden, Stardust love all around, semillas de paterna, inappropriate comments about little people, Red Velvet Cafe, Imagine Dragons show, Build-A-Better class at TCG, met my new little BFF with an orange smile, talked to Jenn & Jake ("it all makes sense now"), Mark Brenner restaurant, LuisMi was in town too, Mariachis at the Caesar's Palace, super accent of mine... where did it come from? "Say one two tree please," lost my ass again, Absinthe (the show), 3am Bingo, #NoSleepVegas, #XNAfail (we were so close to landing and we started ascending.. whaaaaaat)

Loved every minute.

Time capsule (from myself, Sept 15, 2010)

"HOW'S THE ART??? Remember that ideas come from creating. If you don't create, the ideas won't come. Dream, daydream, imagine... whatever, but you have to put it on paper or canvas so that better things come to you."

One week left of Summer + Las Vegas

Oh Summer, so sweet and so short. A couple of weeks ago the weather started to change and nights are getting cooler. The skies have also been a extra intense shade of blue, lately. I already miss the hazy afternoons and washed out skies. I have become a Summer baby. Hard to believe, but there was a time in my life where I used to dread the hottest days of the year.

I'm embracing life though, so it's OK if Summer goes away for a little bit, as long as it comes back to me...

I've had a wonderful time shooting film in the last couple of months and "excited" doesn't really describe how I feel about seeing the prints that come out of my Summer project. To end things with a nice note, I'm going to Las Vegas this weekend. I get to visit my dear friends and I get to see one of my new fave bands life, Imagine Dragons.

Please remind me, to never stop being excited about every day in the life.

You Always Make Me Smile by Kyle Andrews

I like your messy hair
I like the clothes you wear
I like the way you sing
And when you dance with me
Ready set, here we go

I don't know why, I love you
I just know I can't stop thinking of you
Oh wait, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
It's 'cause you make me smile
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
You always make me smile

I like that rainbow pair
Of gym shoes that you wear
I like the chance you take
I like the mess you make

I don't know why, I love you
I just know I can't stop thinking of you
Oh wait, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
It's because you make me smile
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
You always make me smile

I like that rainbow pair
Of gym shoes that you wear
I like the way you sing
And when you dance with me
I like the face you make
And when you dance with me
I like the rules you break
And when you dance with me
I like the cake you bake
And when you dance with me
I like the chance you take
So won't you dance with me?

I don't know why, I love you
I just know I can't stop thinking of you
Oh wait!
It's 'cause you make me smile
You always make me smile

I don't know why, I love you
I just know I can't stop thinking of you
Oh wait, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
It's because you make me smile
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
You always make me smile
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
You always make me smile

I don't know why, I love you
(You always make me smile)
I just know I can't stop thinking of you
Oh wait, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
It's 'cause you make me smile
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
You always make me smile
You always make me smile

Lomo

A few years ago, I made a friend via a book exchange online. He sent me a book, I sent him a book, and then a couple of more correspondance exchanges happened. We didn't stay in touch, but he did introduce a few good things into my life: the Babyshambles & the SuperSampler. He sent me photos of the Big Chill one year and he had taken them with a little Lomo camera, he said.

I just got mine this week.